Human Relations. i juz can't get it. perhaps itz coz i seldom socialize or coz i'm the only child, anyway, i juz CANNOT handle human relations.

two of my really good guy friends quarrelled today. am feeling really bad about it. i was just sitting beside them, and the two of them were juz firing up at each other, and i din do a thing. well, my attitude was to let them say all their grievances out and hope they would reach a better understanding after they had cooled off, since there was no point stopping them once they had started. the damage would already had been done when they first exploded.

but in retrospect, i wunder if i should haf butted in and stopped the situation from spiralling downhill. the whole incident was nobody's fault actually, if it was anybody's fault, it would be mine. as the appointed-leader of the cosplay committee, it was my decision to split the team up into two. true, the original team objected, and might be a bit pissed off; but there is never a solution in which everyone can be happy.

or so i thought. is there really such a thing as a win-win situation? it really just depends on the attitude u take towards the situation, and not the solution u seek rite?

well, for the curious souls out there, the argument was because the two groups of people wanted to do radically different themes. in the end we decided to compromise on one, and everything was set up rather nicely. den one week later, i decided to split the team into two groups. one of the members wanted to quit because he just couldn't stand the theme and i realized that there was no point doing something u do not like. besides, there were a lot of rational reasons behind the split. however, it seemed like we were juz dumping the original group, and it would be bad for the morale.

i guess my friend (who wanted to quit in the first place) felt guilty about the ruckus the original group was making, and felt against the split. my other friend was annoyed because he felt my friend was arguing against both the solutions and could come up with no better one of his own. it kinda blew up. i felt shitty, but i couldn't let it show. i was just afraid it would worsen the situation, because the first friend would feel guiltier, and the second friend would feel angrier towards the first.

the cosplay project is about doing wat we like, and enjoying wat we do. wat is the point if we go to loggerheads over it?

should i? shouldn't i? argh~~~~! there's a dozen arguments and voices running through my head, so fast and confusing i can't even begin to sort them out. the reason? i can't say it in a public place like this!!! ARGH~~~~~!!!

if... if i... do you think...?

... nevermind

whee~ coz of the ultra good results of our seniors, we got our traditional full-day off today. thank you, Mrs Chan!!! well, actually we wanted a two-day off, but i guess that's pushing it a bit far.

well, weiteen, june, lola and i went to east coast beach to bike. $5 for 2 hours. sounds fun rite? it was REALLY REALLY FUN!

it rained half and hour after we set of, and we got marooned on the jetty for another half hour. when the rain thinned, we tried to cycle off, only to take shelter at the pavilion 200m away. ended up dancing 'Neutron' and 'I Want You' while waiting for the rain to stop.

in the end, as the end of our rental period draws near, we juz gaf it all up and rode off in the rain. was totally drenched, but it sure was fun. the rain was super cold, and like pins falling onto the skin; the glasses were all blurred and the hair were all plastered onto the face. and the entire track seemed to be ours to use. and as we rode, we sang the dunman high and victoria JC anthems like patriotic proud knights riding off into the sunset. YEAH~~~~!!!

whee~~~! i reached home at 11pm!!! it's the first time i stayed out so late, and on a school day too!

one more (little little) step towards greater freedom!

went out to celebrate JR's birthday, which is TOMORROW, at Sake Sushi. cool, i've never eaten sushi there before. 6 people squeezed into one table for 4, i think JR's super long legs died after being cramped for so long.

it was a super fun experience, and some of the sushi is so damn cute u feel guilty for eating it! yes! especially the tako-pachi! damn KAWAII! wah~~~! i am so full after dinner...

but wait, there's more. undaunted by the sky-high prices of Andersen's Icecream, we went over to McDonalds for 25c ice-cream at 9.30pm, den went over to Comics Portal at Roxy Square where we spent a total of 50 bucks. *whistle*

free advertisement for Comics Portal: they sell really cool anime and comics stuff! really value-for-money! located at new ROXY Square First Floor!

CCA walk-about tomorrow. Victorians! come join table tennis recreational club and art club~!!!

hmmm... went to watch The Eye 2 yesterday.

good and bad. the story was nice, a bit funny, and also quite touching. and the babies at the end were so damn CUTE!!!

bad is... i was looking forward to some super scariness and spookiness, the kind that make me cringe and make my heart go "thump thump thump" wildly. there were only like 3 scary scenes, and those lasted for only a few seconds. i think i was more spooked by the trailer of Into The Mirror (or sumthing...) before the movie was screened.

but, overall, a good feeling. just felt very guilty that my friends had to come all the way to Tampines Mall instead of going to the preferred Orchard Road coz i had to be home early. but it was exhilarating to haf stella in tampines; i dun think she has been here often. its almost like hafin ur frenz come over to ur home, when its more like "hometown" larz.

niwae, a bit hyper this morning... and i had a red eye, and its quite funny coz i had a red eye after watching THE EYE. sorry, lame sia.

yeah~~~ today is the last day for buying MusicFest tickets.

due to the overwhelming response, (some people queueing up since 1pm on friday), the SCs decided to disclose the location of the next sale exactly at 5pm.

i was fidgeting and getting all stressed out about not getting a ticket for the 15min before 5 in the canteen. at 5 exactly, there was this blur and highly static announcement that went "#%tickets#^!#*&SCroom". I started dashing towards the staircase, but paused when i saw no one else making a dash(... man! i super regretted that!) before getting pushed along with the crowd.

in the end... i couldn't get a ticket.. oh well. i could haf sworn i was one of the first 30 to reach there, but... OH WELL. the tix were sold out 6 persons in front of me. OH WELL!

but it was fun. and exhilarating. and it made me feel so Singaporean, like i was participating in the totally Singaporean things like queueing up for the NDP, Hello Kitty soft-toys, used textbooks... i alwaes felt so left out when the newspaper delved into those events and made it seem like every Singaporean was queueing up for stuff except me.

other then queueing, other fun things include Netball during PE, Shawn coming back to VJC and running into Emilyn 3 times in a day.

well, now that i haf $12 extra in my budget, and feeling extremely dejected and empty, i went shopping and spent a total of $10 in an hour. TEN! that's 10% of my monthly allowance! TEN!!! (i am feeling so guilty right now.) sigh.

but it WAS a fun day.

yesterday becky told kwok onn i said i loved him. BWAhahahaha! u could hear him shouting "wat the hell?!?" all the way from the multimedia room. (which isn't very far from where they are), but it was damn funny.

no, i dun haf feelings for him.

it's juz that he bought the art room supplies (cream crackers!!! cream crackers!!! screams and dies) at last, and i was so looking forward to it that i blabbered out loves to every single art student i know.

yes, well, actually, the crackers BELONG to the art student's, but we from the art club always "kop" from them. they dun mind, really. but the crackers were really nice to eat, and alwaes a welcome snack, especially for people like me who alwaes skip lunch to eat freebies.

NIWAE! as we're on the topic of "love", i would like to put in a word of "huh? waddayameanitswrittenonmyface?#@&%!?" to all those frenz of mine who had been teasing me this whole week...

end of blog. pia-ing art syf now. (i.am.so.dead)