whee~ i love CIP and service!

no time to write a detailed account; spent 2 hours too long gaming... i hate u, neopets! (btw, my user account is urth, add me as neofriend!)

juz went to the red cross international bazaar to volunteer my services. were walking around and selling flowers. *flower gal!* well, i dun think we helped lots.

in exchange, we got a lot of freebies; a free $10 coupon for buying stuff, free food, free shirts, and 3 potted plants for free! we really went back with big and small bags, like we just came back from a Great Singapore Sale.

donated money to Red Cross. thank you, everyone!

... for the hundredth time, i am telling myself i would work hard, and switch on the computer only after i haf done my homework and even TRY to practice that damn piano sometime.

haha. who am i trying to kid. (wat am i doing here anywae?)

ART SYF is due next friday!!! argh~ and everything's in a shitty mess!!! well, watz fun is that we might haf a "art club syf CAMP" this friday. working on the artpiece all day and all night and all the next morning! *whistle* i've alwaes wanted to do that ever since i stepped into school!

i hope we can really get down to doing it. 9 days left, people!!! and our dear sempai is currently suffering in National Service and can't be around to nag (monitor our progress).

hmmm, and i actually had the cheek to tell Mr Lam that i would try to catch up with my tutorials by Monday. i'm like 3 tutorials behind, and its not just HIS tutorials, there's also Physics and Mechanics and... ...

but i must add that i think i AM pretty smart; i actually know wat is going on in class. but i really must buck up. wat seems to be pulling my grades down is not the Art SYF, Piano, cosplay, website, etc.... but ironically, online manga scanlations and neopets!!! ewwwwwww...

okae, discipline. i need motivation.

I'LL WORK HARD FOR LOVE!!! (love for life, love for self, love for frenz and family, love for money, love for success, love for profits, love for my future spouse/bf, love for noeledge, love for manga... blah...)

for the stupidest reasons, i'm feeling so happy and cheerful and blessed and lucky and loved and... ... today. hmmmmz.

quote of the day:
CHOBITS- You are what you are. The things that make you different; the things that make you special, they might trouble him. If he doesn't like you because you are different, then he is not 'The One'. If he cannot like you for what you are, then he is not the 'Person just for U'.

just found a site for online scanlations of Chobits. feel like going to buy the manga after reading them. =D

dying...

not really. but i'm on the way there. i can see hell's firey gates inches away from my nose every night i fall asleep. i'm reaching there on Friday. and the way there would be even worse.

ART SYF IS DUE ON FRIDAY!!! we're way behind schedule, and i'm inclined to think its all moi fault, coz i din do my role as the organizer good enough.

and table tennis recreational club has no juniors!!! we're a dying cca!!! i AM inclined to think i am a jinx that brings misfortune to all those associated with me... *sobz*

AND! project work's results are back. 90% of vjc students got Band 1 and 2. i'm the 10% of the cohort. cool.

the cooler thing is; tomolo i'll finally haf a chance to scale the railings of the stairway to the V and R block in school!!! i'm going to school for art club; and the gates'd better be locked. i've been wanting to climb over for like FOREVER! but the stupid skirt alwaes get in the way. YAY!

yar, that's the moz optimistic thing i can think of today... sigh.

i'm going insane. really.

nowadays, i've been mixing up reality and... i dunno, dreams? non-realities? i just realized that i did not do a lot of things i thought i did; perhaps i dreamt them up?

its just damn annoying, especially when i'm in the production stage and i haf to take note of what had been done and what had not. and i SPECIFICALLY remembered doing this, but i just can't recall the when and where. and of course there is no data to back up the fact. i guess i had been thinking so much about art that i've been "working" in my sleep and coming up with non-existent products.

am i losing my mind?

and we got caught climbing over the railings; damn.

i'm out of love again. in chinese, its called "shi1 lian4 le4". dun ask me why. there IS a why, of coz, but juz dun feel like saying out loud. all i can sae is i'd been feeling depressed since last night. sigh.

sigh. "if u like him that much why dun u juz tell him?" hmm... it sounds so easy and straight-forward doesn't it?

niwae, i supposedly fall out of love once every week; so i get used to it. (everytime i interact with him, i'm bound to get depressed...) its juz, this time its a lot serious den usual neh...

*lame input today, sorry*

do u ever get the feeling that u haf so many things to do, that u dun noe wat to start with, and end up doing nothing at all? and u just get even more stressed as the deadlines draw nearer, and it all becomes one big vicious cycle.

drat. procastination really screws up ur life, u noe? i'm not even bothering to promise myself to work harder anymore. nope, no more empty promises. juz hope my conscience catches up to me quick. eep.