yay! the office imported a tin of egg rolls into the pantry today! (spring rolls and chocolate eclairs yesterday; ate so much that we skipped lunch for the day) the rolls were really nice; not too oily or sweet or hard. the biscuits were put in an opaque tin with "soya bean oil" printed on the outside. some kind-hearted office worker pasted a post-it labelling it as "egg rolls" to stop everyone else opening it up to see what is inside. some super inconsiderate, selfish, greedy and immature 18 year old gal with a ponytail pasted it over with another post-it. lol.

and i'm really happy in my workplace! the people are really nice, and there's really a lot of benefits (food-wise that is). was pretty wowed that there's a party this friday night (free food and booze), den there's a lao yu sheng lunch out next friday too... free food!

somehow i feel that i'm gonna gain weight in these 6 months.

and, and! my parents might let me be home alone for the chinese new year period! *looking forward to it*

other then that... just very bored most of the time. and suddenly got this impulse to start drawing character designs again. yep! but i don't have the technology, expertise or tools to create a satisfactory piece of work lehz! grarl! i think i'm going to try a fully pencil-medium style. cheap and easy. but hell to scan. geh.

i suck!!!!

and "Skip Beat!" is a really nice manga! i dun want to return to the shop! cried when i read the third volume. den reread it again coz its so nice, and cried again. (-___-) which is really silly coz its a comical manga. beh.

geh... its really boring in the office now... no work to do, just sitting there in my armchair and sucking in the aircon and staring stupidly at the computer screen. i feel like i'm just leeching off the company!

in the afternoon, we had half an hour during our lunch break free, so we decided to go walk around the neighbourhood. went to the community centre (back gate is locked), the Pinnacle showroom (which is closed liao), a fitness corner (still couldn't do a complete pull-up) AND A PLAYGROUND.

the playground is really eerie. when i climbed up, i found this plastic bag of fruits, and a pair of really old spectacles laid on the playhouse floor. yting got the shivers from it; she said it was like it was put there as prayer items. for me, i felt like it was the treasure of some homeless man living in the playground. either way, its eerie. eeeeerieeeee...

after work, went to meet fen near TM to receive some xiamen goodies from her. peanut cake, specialty of Xiamen! coz i kept procastinating, in the end there were only 4 pieces left for me. (she'd wanted to keep one whole box for me) but i'll treasure them! all the way from china lehz!

will be cutting my hair tmr. another impulsive thing. ...man, its like the "manic" and "depression" symptoms larz. suddenly very excited and enthusiastic about doing stuff, or else too sianz to even talk with other people. speaking of which; i think after Fruits Basket, i should stop borrowing manga liao. really want to start reading newspapers, finance books and drawing lehz. PS2 and manga are consuming what little free time i have. i need control over my life...

hairdresser shop >

(tx sits down. hairdresser, now known as H starts draping the cloth around her. yting sits opposite.)

H: oh, we had a price hike.
tx: EH!?! how much now?
H: $16 for you.
tx: ... wait har. (to mirror) yting! you got $10?
yt: ...yar.
tx: can lend?
yt: ...yar.
tx: (to hairdresser) oak-
yt: ...no, i dun think i have $10
tx: ah. wait har. (raises hand, looking like a ghost under the bright red cloth) can i go out to withdraw money?
H: ...
tx: ...
H: *smiles* we have NETS, do you want to use that?
tx: oh! really! thank you!
(hairdresser abt to snip)
tx: *small voice* i thot it was $8?

wah~~~ i'm broke! i dun even haf ten dollars in my wallet now! it seems like everything is sucking all my pay away from me! transport, food, manga, clothes, jap and driving lessons....! AND THAT DARN CPF. compulsory saving of 20% of my salary. i was hoping to scrimp and save $5000 for the rest of the year. den i realized, with the cpf reduction, my total salary does not even amount to $5000. its evil! its inhumane!

i mean...! having 20% of your salary illiquid?! what about investment? what about creating demand? what about expanding local market base?

oh. sorry. just feeling very financially insecure lately. maybe i should have another go at buying toto... *evil laf*

on a happier note... no, its too early to announce liao. paiseh =P

ja ne~

just came back from the company's promotion party 2005. it was held at the rooftop of my director's condo, and consisted of a lot of pre-ordered food, the unseen bbq (quietly worked by some helpful colleagues) and a lot of chatting. and liquor. ah... liquor...

basically it's like an australian style bbq? with people going around offering food. somehow i felt that we juniors should be the one walking around serving, but ah well. i dun think anyone minded us being unhelpful. besides, we DID offer to help once. heh~

so most of the time is spent playing games within the clique, like zhong ji mi ma, black sheep baa baa and... can't remember the name... u open ur palms, and shout out if its 5, 10, 15, 20... man, i guess i'm more drunk then i reckoned myself to be.

downed 2 glasses of bacardi + sprite. my mom said that i smelt like alcohol, but i dun think so... the depressing thing is that i don't feel the least bit drunk, perhaps a bit more friendly, and dare to speak out with older colleagues? but generally, my self defense went up, and i think i acted less crazily den normal. i was kind of anticipating an adrenaline rush or 'high' or something less normal, this sense of apathy was kinda of a let down. hmmm... lets try upping the limit more next time.

but my head is pretty heavy now... well be sleeping rather soundly tonight, i should think. learning housework tmr, and signing up for jap the day after. yay~

firstly, jap? what jap? i think we got referred to the wrong place larz; went a big circle to find the language centre, den realized that its closed due to cny, DEN realized that its got a different name from what the website said. was almost late for driving lessons.

and, i got the coolest driving instructor today. talks a bit dirty occassionally, but not very, and i think we hit it off mighty well. the sad thing is i didn't apply for a pdl, so i can't go onto the public roads. den he like got nothing much to teach me liao. so the last fifteen minutes was just him driving me around lorz. mighty fun. he sped in the circuit, wandered on the road, cut into other student's lanes, braked less den 0.5m from the car in front, and forced a pedestrian on the public road back onto the curb.

it was a waste of a $64 session, but it was fun. haha.

in the end was let off a bit late coz he was trying to get into this parking lot, and the instructor behind wanted that lot too. so we just jammed up the pathway. but we gave up and parked in the adjacent space in the end, haha.

den... rushed back to tampines to meet up with konno and thong. konno looks super cute *kyaaa* in his uniform and super oversized bag. seriously, his bag is twice his size and half his weight lar. like those primary school schoolboys going off to their first day of school, hahaha! (i think i'd better delete this statement by cny eve)

niwae, i bought a pencil. so i think i'll be posting some stuff soon. yay. that's the happy announcement (refer: 03/02 entry). haha.

its horrible... my scanning sucks, and i can't be bothered to colour with adobe ps, so~

n the most horrible thing is i'm gonna be dying tmr. really. chinese new year eve, and i'll be crawling around on all fours towards my office. coz my dinner was HORRIBLE!

horrible... horrible... horrible...

well, being my first in-home dinner since my parents left, i decided heck, i'm gonna make the simplest of dinners: egg mayo sandwich. yep.

the hard-boiled eggs turned out soft boiled... i'd been boiling it for fifteen minutes lar; and i took it out and turned it on the table top and shook it to make sure that its solid. den when i tried cracking open the shell the way u do a hard boiled egg, the thing just exploded in my hands. so in the end i had two very runny soft boiled eggs+egg shells for dinner. and peanut butter sandwich. and the tastes crashed. and now i feel so darn horrible...

+i went bonkers and played KH again, so now i have a splitting headache to boot. waaa~ i think i came online just to complain on my blog lorz.

oh oh, and we went to the correct jap language centre today. very cool. got a lot of anime posters plastered all over the wall, that's enough to buy me over.

sadly, the class is still short of 3 people to commence. but i think it'll be alright lar.

and despite how horrible the day was and how horrible i feel; i'm still pretty happy. hee. (now, that didn't make perfect sense.)

*burp* *turns white* i'm going to bed... *whines*

yay~ its day one of chinese new year!

lets see... on the eve, it was a half day at work, so we arranged to meet jr and konno for lunch. woke up at 5am to pack my sleepover bag and water the plants. den spent 15 min pondering over whether i should throw my clothes into the washing machine or not. decided against it.

so~ rushed home after work, only had time to grab the bag, and den rushed off again. the clothes! the clothes! cannot leave over the new year unwashed... *wails* i'm not going to get any windfall this year liaoz... sob. and i tottered off in my high-heeled for a 24hr out-of-house.

had fun. i'm sorry i have nothing to say about my work at all; coz there's nothing. (-_-) its more fun listening about army stuff aniwae.

den went off to my aunt's house to get thrashed by my cousins at PS games. and godammit! i cannot play the PS cds i borrowed from him on my PS2! wails~ now there's no multiplayer games we can play on our stay-over night this friday! how how how how how!

sobz.

last night felt like a dream... its like... luxurious sia... slept in an air-con room; the toilet is clean and dry, there's a maid to wash the plates, there's PS-san and pets, the bed is just right; not too hard or soft... *stares at the bed that broke twice in two years* damn.

ah~ but it feels good to be home. i think i'm gonna go sleep at like nine tonight; dead tired.

and, for today, its just... angbao-day. had to give out angbaos in my mother's place; so basically felt like a really old person. and everyone seemed really sympathetic to the fact that i'm home alone, but, i'm happy home alone... sobz... tho i dun eat right and i dun feel secure about waking up on time and i can die and no one would know... but somehow i just feel very happy everytime i wake up and think: "i'm home alone."

bought pancake mix. my thots every night before i sleep is: will try baking pancakes for breakfast tmr! Kyaa~ and have another go at egg-mayo sandwich for lunch! and try making okonomiyaki for dinner! and try playing the piano and working on the flash animation and cleaning up the house and.... (point being, i'm overly enthusiastic but too lazy alright. but hope and daydreams are what keeps one alive)

going to bathe and comb my hair liao. forgot to bring comb over last night, so basically i made it through the day with uncombed hair. and i think it actually looks neater den when i comb it lorz. think all the strands just tangled together and kept each other from flying all over the place.

mew~ day 2 of cny! trooped off to yy's house to visit. we read and reread Skip Beat, den watched Tsukihime. YY din really like it; i think she fell semi-asleep halfway through, lol.

uuu, need to read this book, so going off now. nitez!

oh, about day before yesterday? sleep-over...

about 6 gals (including myself) came over to my house after work and played mah jong. ahahaha. i think we were pretty noisy, but no neighbours complained at all, so well.

shawn dropped by at 11.30 to pass me naruto by my request, and also to borrow my manga. in a way he came for nothing *buuu* coz in the end i realized what i have is incomplete and he wasn't interested in the other series. and he missed the last bus home (which was 11.30 from Tampines, buuu) so he borrowed my trick bike to cycle home. again, I'M SORRY SHAWN!!! KONNO-CHAN GOMENASAIIIII!!! it'll never happen again! i have no idea how it happened in the first place anyway.

in summary, he got home unscathed, and we played mahjong till 5am, and PS2 till 6 (FFX cannot be played. why?) and i woke up on the dining room sofa with no recollection of how i got there. for all i remember, i was sleeping on the carpet watching yy play kingdom hearts. *shiver* there's another incident where i lost my "between sleep" memory. the other time was when my mom got her hands on some bird's nest soup, and decided to have us wake up at midnight to drink it. its sup to taste better or be more tonic or something. den i had ZERO memory of having drunk the soup at all! i was convinced that she lied to me and drunk my share, but in lieu of the latest incident, i guess i do lose my memory in the middle of the night. *shiver* one day i'm going realize i'm actually a midnight mass-murderer or vampire. yepz.

oh, and yesterday, i got my pdl! provisional driving license! now i can test drive on public roads! actually i drove on public road today; from eunos to tampines. yay!

and i was so tired i skipped my breakfast, had egg-mayo sandwich for lunch (i suceeded in boiling the egg!) and skipped my dinner. and i found out i lost 1 kg this morning. *evil grinz* and i put my clothes in the washer and forgot to add washing detergent! so i had to rewash today... sobz

aniwae, today... went driving on public roads! went to 70km/h! its darn cool! i love driving! evaluation next week, hope i get through it breezily and move on to other subjects.

den felt rebellious today, and went to get my ears pierced. OUCH. like, i can feel the needle going through my ear layer by layer, its totally NOT instantaneous pain. ouch... its throbbing.. its throbbing..

and the sad thing is i bought the cheapest cheapest earring available: $22. gold-plated, not for sensitive ears. and yy bought the platinum one that cost $119... its like just a gold stud. but i like it this way, coz i'm planning to wear dangling earrings anyway. den simple gold balls when i'm feeling boyish.

graRGH! valentine's day tmr! irritating day where unattached people sit at home and hug their tv-sets or computers or ps2-sans while the lucky females leech free dinners and roses and expensive gifts off their unsuspecting boyfriends. *roars* i declare war on romance and blissful couplehood! *breathes fire*

wah, went out for a dhs table tennis reunion dinner. hadn't seen all of them for so long; too bad the majority of people cannot make it today. only ten people. but the thing is, the streets are filled with couples. couples. jewellery shops are filled, restaurants are filled...

i think i'll just go fish around tmr, pah! (actually, no. i want to go buy a cap)

urgh. three more hours before the day is over. i shall survive~!

uuu, it really is the SINGLE worst day in my entire life history... really... nothing came out right... screwed up twice at work (majorly). like... put the wrong paper in the printer tray, and my senior printed out his stuff on coloured paper, when we were all OT-ing liao larz. den wasted like 30 odd pieces of paper to misprinting or mistyping. in the end i even messed up all the files in the shared network drive! sent some stuff from one dept to the next, with no idea where the files initially were. Uuuu.. the spirits of Valentines are cursing me...

den my hp screwed up on me, so i can't send a single sms, just when someone attempted to ask me out. guuu. *throws hp on the ground*

and today, the manga rental shop is going to be relocated, so i have to return all the manga, which is 40 odd books? dragged 8kg worth of books across Tampines in office clothes, i think i lost another kg in this exercise. ...speaking of which, i missed my dinner...

i'll just go sleep and wish this day would just GO AWAY. (i dun dare touch ps2-san, coz at the rate the day is going, i'm going to spoil it just by touching it)

happy valentine's day.

on a happy note, the manga-rental shop girl let me read Skip Beat 8 for free! yay! and my parents are... coming home... tomorrow...? which means... i have to clean up and do my housework by 7am tomorroW! WHAT SLEEP?!? KYAA~~~~!!!

*rushes off*

yay! my parents are home! had a new year dinner tonight, really sumptous. got pig trotters, abalone + veg, cold dish.... *mouth re-waters*

to celebrate their return, i went to buy peaches yesterday. $2.50 each. i do believe i got ripped off. but the peaches are nice! and furry. and nice!

i realize that whenever i'm in a good/bad mood i'll tend to spurge. and actually i'd had this crush on a cap for three days already. so i actually went to buy it today! haha! $9 for the cap, and now i look like a McDonald's cashier. but its really nice! (the first cap i ever bought~*heart*)

basically, this blog will be revolving around my new cap and my new-found love for the art of investment. yep, i'm starting to read all those financial analysis books lying around the house. Starting on this technical analysis book called The Joseph Cycle; the author is really pissing me off as of now. i mean, i feel so cheated after reading the first chapter, it feels like preaching about the bible and pulling of various stuff like astronomy, tides, unrelated historical events to support the point that, hey, cycles exist all around us!

now i think i get the feeling our poor GP tutors have when they read our rambling essays; "not concise and just a random splattering of info to show off useless knowledge. waste of time to read and mark"

i'm sorry, author. to be fair i admit the third chapter heading sounds very attractive and hopeful. i think i'll get there by tomorrow.

and regarding work... the pace is super picking up now. i've got a quarter of my work today left to be done tomorrow. if all does not go well, i think i might have to start OT-ing. in a way i'm quite happy about that. i mean, i feel productive! yay~

and i've restarted on RO, but the server keeps kicking me out halfway through my game. uuu.

actually, there's something i wanted to blog about, but i can't for the life of me remember what it was. ergh.

i'm an idiot... no two ways about it... idiot, idiot, idiot.

met thong to get PSO at tanah merah, den decided to save my feet walking and take a bus home from there. the bus would take me 5 stops, and deposit me at my doorstep. den i wouldn't have to trudge all the way from the MRT to home.

in the end i took the wrong bus home!!! *holds head in hands* there was this new bus route to my house, 39. well, its NEW, so i wasn't really familiar with the number... anyway, took 38 from tanah merah, which brought me through the whole of Simei, and through the other edge of Tampines before allowing me to alight at Tampines Interchange. so i had to walk a longer way home, plus the bus ride took half an hour!!! my stomache was postively GROWLING.

anyhow, i'm hungry. and sleepy...

NO~ i din buy one! went browsing around in sim lim for 2 hours, looking for one i liked. actually, i'd set my heart on MuVo2 1GB, but it was out of production. like, darnz. and i din't like the new MuVo Slim; it looked so fragile and crackable.

Uuu, so i spent the next 2 hours cruising around with yy and jia, looking for something like old MuVo2. Non~ Maybe i'll settle for the first thing that i can get my hands on, or get a second hand.

i want a mp3 player!!! the office is really quiet, and i need it for lectures if i manage to make it to uni too.

speaking of which, it was spring cleaning in the office this week, coz an impt potential client is coming down to survey our working conditions. my table was uncomfortably neat; meaning the papers are actually in 3 neat little stacks, and the drawer was so hellish it pains me to stick my hand in and dig for a paper clip.

basically EVERYTHING that looks out of place ends up thrown into the drawer; paper clip boxes, hole-puncher container (hafn't thrown away), spare pencils, 13 sheets of mp3 player catalogues, 2 piano scores, random pieces of paper i forgot where to put, but dared not shred, packets of crackers (cannot be seen in the open by pot. client), candies and the huge smelly issue of Today, which i kopped coz it had a long write-up on Japan on the cover.

in the end, they walked past. heard them approaching 3 cubicles away and broke up our mp3 player-discussion gathering to sit in front of the computer redoing a document. lol. thinking back, that was so silly.

lastly, damn! i need a driving lesson slot! my next lesson is scheduled in 4 weeks time! i want to drive...

my grandmother was hospitalized for food poisoning yesterday. all's well now, and she can't wait to be home. trouble is, she can't be discharged yet as there are no doctors available to sign her out. because its a weekend and no doctors are on duty. like what?! i assumed there would be doctors around 24/7!?

and visiting hours are over at two. which makes the hospital feel kind of like a prison; imagine lying in there with no one for company except your fellow hospital wardmate, who sits so far away you can't hold a proper conversation. i'm not sure about the system, but apparently they lock the visitors door after visiting hours, so if you stay past then, you'd have to ask a nurse to go to the door and unlock it for you to go out. irritating.

i seldom go to hospitals, so i don't really have much to compare. but, do all hospitals NOT haf air-conditioning? i suspect that after the hospitals budget cuts, they just decided to switch off the air-conditioning, or just keep it to a bare minimum. the lobby air felt really still and ominous, and the lights were not very bright either, so basically, it looked like the air was GRAY. but thankfully, the wards were better ventilated.

and... lunch. i could have sworn there was an eatery in the basement the last time i came, but this time... my mum and i snooped around for things to eat; there was this cafe selling hotdogs; there was 7-eleven; there was a nasi-lemak shop (with 3 tables), and there was the toasted sandwich dispenser in the next building.

everything was screaming "VISITORS GO AWAY! THE PATIENTS DON'T NEED YOU AROUND, THE HOSPITAL IS A PLACE WHERE THEY RECUPERATE, NOT GET THE LOVE AND CONCERN THEY DESERVE! LET US SUCK THEIR MONEY DRY WITHOUT HAVING YOU AROUND TO SEE IT!"

and i ask how the hell the docs and nurses are going to understand what the old folks need without the family members around when they dun speak their language.

i hear about singapore hospitals being of world-class standard, and we are wooing foreigners come over for cheap and high quality operations. maybe those are the more famous ones like SGH and gleneagles, coz, basically, i don't like what i see today.

god forbid that i ever get ill; i'll never survive a day in that building.

and, YES! i'm irritated. so ignore me.