hmm, i did quite badly for my A's. Getting into the university of my choice seems very unseemly now.

Somehow i get the feeling that everything is just going to start going wrong from now on; actually i got that feeling at the start of the june holidays last year.

but now everything's been finalized and confirmed, its time to quieten down, and do some deep thinking about the future and my life. i think very slowly. will be thinking for a very long time.

but i doubt you'll see me appearing online in msn; or replying to messages, coz basically i can't be bothered to talk. myu~ sorry neh.

i'll try my best to get over this spell quick. ^ ^

i'm BACK~ (like yks said, that was fast thinking)

so, i'm just going to apply for all the universities available in singapore. just returned from career fair 2005, saw a lot of choices there. especially art institutes; wah, if i can't make it to SMU, NUS, NTU, i wanna go learn filming and directing and stuff! but i guess i can make it to a uni. sighz....

yar, asked around, my scores should be able to get me into NTU at least. heh. and if i'm in NTU, i'll get to see the OCS people everyday!

and went to dinner with my cousin and her family at Raffle's Town Club. ummm, the food is... not as good as the name of the club sounded. haha. but the club was posh.

going to sleep. jap lessons tmr. hee.

hmmz. uh. long time no see.

basically, my com is lagging, and i'm darn sleepy every night and i want to go sleep like right now.

actually, nah. i'll go back to sleep. nitez~ another day perhapz.

(summary: i'm dead tired; office work is picking up, there's driving tomolo, jap lessons on sunday, art portfolios to do, websites to churn out, art competitions to apply for, talks to go to, outings to attend, and i need to go to vjc one day to chiong manga and get back my RG Veda before my junior forgets my face. mew~)

hmmz. so anyway, i bought a mp3 player at last. a Creative MuVo^2 FM player, 5.0 GB, with fm and voice recording functions. Thinking back, maybe I shouldn't have done that, but, watz bought is bought, and it is a long term investment. heh.

actually... i tend to spurge when i'm in a bad mood. and also go for drastic changes like hair-cutting. so today i went around the whole of TM looking for a hair-dresser to cut my hair SHORT short. got turned off by the smell and the complicated looking equipment they have there. in the end ended up at the $10 barber's again.

So... i stared at the ticket dispenser machine, debating whether to part with my $10 when the barber came over. and i was like... "ummm... i want to cut my hair SHORT. but i can't decide what style, can you just decide for me?" after bargaining for a while, we realized that my hair totally CURLSsssss after tying, making it impossible to work on. (which is why i want to cut it!) so i guess if i'm still in a bad mood tomorrow i'll turn up there and bug him again. but how can i be in a bad mood after a jap lesson? i want to cut my hair.... now. *hands inching towards the scissors*

japanese lessons are great. although most of the stuff are things i'd studied before on my own, there are opportunities to speak japanese, and the teacher is SUPER cute. but i totally horrified her when i scolded my friend BAKA in the middle of the lesson. i don't think she'll take it to heart and label me a problem student tho. quite looking forward to this sunday's lesson; i've self-studied the next chapter in advance liaoz! i shall pass my JLPT 1 with flying colours!

and... if you noticed i'd been offline a lot these days, it'll be because i was applying for universities. that's singaporean kiasu-ism for you. i guess if i procastinated, it'll end up like my cpf form; left on the table until a few weeks before the deadline. (oh, haven't told you about it. its this insurance scheme that comes with cpf, and if you don't want it, you have to mail the letter back to them. i signed it, sealed it, and put it on the table to be mailed... and one month later, while looking for my 'misplaced' cca certs and SAT scores, i found the cpf letter again. so i tore it open to check the contents, glued the flaps together again and resealed it with scotch tape so as to pretend it was never tampered with. it looks HORRIBLY disfigured. i would have tot the cpf people would call me up to check if my form was tampered with or anything. hymphz.)

anyway, signed up for all three universities, business all the way~ to tell the truth, i DO NOT want to go NUS, coz i realized, none of the schools there are for me. i am going into finance/art, and... the closest there is for me was business admin. which IS business. fun, but. nah. just crossing my fingers and hoping to make it into SMU (hopefully a miracle will happen and they would enrol me into double degree, but HAHA. that will be a miracle) or NTU (den i can live in hostels, although i hear from seniors that the hostel life is not very... "clean", so i guess that is a not. maybe rent a room near the school?)

and about the office... work is picking up again. think i might actually get actual OT hours next week. as it is currently, i work past office hours, but coz i'm such a nice person (and i slack a bit during the noon breaks and my productivity is ever so low) i tend to undercharge, making my working hours below the standard 40 hours/week. so hopefully i can get OT pay, and thus pay for the extravagant sum i spent on my mp3 player! (hereby named MuVo-tan, coz its pink)

and there's supposed to be something else... can't remember. hmmz. well, it WAS more den one week since i last blogged, and lots of stuff happened. and it IS hard to type online, what with ganna-ing viruses and running the darned virus-scan twice, my obsession with dark and gory and psycho-themed online manga (i know its bad for me but its just THERE and unlicensed you see. i can't refuse it!) and a father and mother who wants to use the computer as much as i do. actually, much more den i do, since i'm reading most of the time now anyway.

i'm ranting. am i ranting? yes, i'm ranting. will try to put up age_of_babel by 13 March 2005 midnight lar.

went for Jap lessons  in the morning. was late as i couldn't find my wallet again. but not as bad as yting, she was late for 1.5 hours coz she forgot all about it. haha.

for some reason is very tired today.... but anyway, went off to watch Howl's Moving Castle. Got lost, coz originally wanted to go Sun Plaza to watch, ended up going to Sunshine Plaza. (sun plaza is in serangoon?) So, after i spent a ticket going from Somerset to Dhoby Ghaut and walking so darn long a distance, i decided to heck it and just walk to Suntec from there. Went adventuring... asked tonnes of people on the road for directions, most of whom said "Suntec... very far leh. Take a MRT lar." which didn't make sense, seeing as how i managed to walk from Dhoby Ghaut to Bugis. Suntec must be somewhere in between right?

in the end, remembered how last time i walked from bugis to sunshine plaza, and how i walked from Suntec to Bugis (coz shawn gave the wrong instructions), and linked the two. now i know more about walking from Bugis to City Hall to Dhoby Ghaut. half hour walk only~ =D can save 80c!

but i think i got tanned coz of the walk; and i won't be surprised if i fried my brain, and more horrifying, my mp3 player. (which still hasn't finished charging... its been 3 hours liao lehz) speaking of which, argh! jem called to say there's a Creative Sale tomorrow, selling MY Muvo-tan at $149! arghz!!!!!

bleagh.

P.S. Howl's was nice and ultra CUTE, but as with a lot of Miyazaki's films, i don't understand a lot of stuff. like why they were so courteous towards that old woman. (i'll have just kicked her down the castle a long time ago) and what the king's witch is consorting (i thot she was not evil, den she was evil, den she was not evil again) if i watch it again, maybe i'll catch some part of the plot. hmmmz.

happy~ i'm happy today. -yawnz-

seriously, i need a new focus in life; its stupid to swing from moodiness to pure bliss just by the actions or words of -one- person.

e-trial for driving final theory test tmr! will do my best not to fail!

(that was short)

basically, about Muvo-tan. i feel so silly; i spend $300 on her, and have no space in my bag to place her, neither do i have pant pockets to stuff her in. so i'm contemplating revamping the entire office-wear wardrobe just so i can bring her along to see the world. which is, SILLY~! waaaa...

and about personification of beloved objects; its landing me into trouble in jap lessons, coz basically, "kore wa computyaa-san desu. iie. computyaa desu." (roughly translated: this is mr. computer. no, this is A computer.)

there's a need to drop the habit! but its so impolite towards computyaa-san, ps2-san to Muvo-tan! *torn in two*

i feel mean. and very evil.

OT-ed until 7.30pm again, and den rushed off to my Driving Final Theory E-trial test (which i failed yet agains). and was walking home from the 28 bus stop when i noticed this brown Furry creature in the grass. It was this 7cm long mouse! super cute!

so i went closer to see, and it ran away, and i chased it... and suddenly it just freaked out and ran across my pathway squeaking manically. the squeaks... the squeaks... its horrible~ i'll get nightmares tonight... basically its more like a short wailing shrieks den squeaks. *brrr* and i felt super mean for scaring it so. uuu...

den after that freaky incident, i came across these two huge fat cats sitting up by my path and just staring transfixedly upwards. its EERIE! i was taunting them and walking circles around them, and they just refused to budge! the animals are acting weird tonight...

hmm, and the meanest thing i did for the year was getting angry with HL this morning... basically she tried to break my user password, and in the end i got locked out of the system coz "there appears to be an attempt to break into the computer's security; please contact the network administrator"

and i had to retype my return, coz i can't print and the main administrator was out of office, so i had to search around for someone else! and i can't access the net, i can't access the network.. and i was just fuming away as i tried to get my computer on again. i think i scared my friends. i'm sorry~~~~!!!!

i guess i'm stressed lately. still got two returns to do. and, oh oh! right now i've got 3 seniors giving me stuff to do! *happy~* coz originally i had the two asst. managers as my seniors. but now there are two permanent staff in the department, so they would be transferring to be under the two asst. managers. so i'm being transferred over to a tax senior (super cool guy). but as of now, the perm staff still dun noe the ropes, so i've got 3 seniors! (while yy and ning only has one each) whee~

but some how my working hours just get lost lehz; worked OT yesterday for 1.5 hours, in the end when i tried charging my time, realized, i only worked for 8.3 hours; 0.3 hours extra?

??

basically, i'm spent.

had the SMU talk at 10am, city hall; so i had to leave the house at 8.30am to get a seat. and i woke up at 6.30am coz i was so nervous i'll be late, and that i'd remembered the wrong dates. (in the end i DID remember the wrong dates, mixed up sunday and saturday's tok, haha)

it was super crowded. had to sit on the floor for the first tok (thank goodness for JR, else i think we'll be standing for the whole 2 hours there), the second talk was... spacy. and the admission tok was so full the door can't even be opened lar. which is stupid, coz there was tonnes of space opposite the room and at the back, just that no one dared to go there? we tried to get to the back, and this guy blocking the way said: "we can't move to the back, there's a chair in the way." it was so weird! and so we walked all the way back to the front again. thinking back, we should have just shoved him aside and put the chair out of the way, but nevermind that. =P

den JR left us for his birthday lunch, and we shopped around city hall for the next two hours. with zero productivity! i'm sorry!

den, ran off to hougang to woon's bday party! met some really nice folks there; mj drew a pic of me in 10 min! really cool! and actually its quite stressing coz all the people there are 4As, and everyone were talking about scholarship applications and stuff. and i just felt so... scared. like i'll never make it to university with all these people around. *brrr* but i can't be bothered to worry about university applications now lar, i've done all i can, safe for kneeling in front of the admission office and staying there until they let me enter the fac.

had to leave the party before the cake came (awwww.) took a taxi down to east coast beach for a Art Club reunion, rushed to the pavilion, and spent an hour chatting to hl. and also spent time with the rest of the club lar, of coz. lol

too bad, no alcohol..... a party's not a party without at least champagne? a bit of alcohol + sprite?

hmm, need to post liao, else it'll end up as tmr's entry.

nite~

i'm back~ *pants*

forgot that i had another driving e-trial test today; so i had to rush back home from the office to pick up my little blue book. had dinner at home as well, and got my parents to drive me down to the centre. in the end was 15 min early, and spent a lot of time acting stoned outside the examination room, sweating away in my long-sleeves and long pants (didn't have time to bathe and change, uuu) waaA~ i should have just taken a bath!

and i failed once again! FTT is really so hard, especially when one is an auto-student. i totally have no idea what all the deal with the clutches and gears and stuff are about. my exam is the coming tuesday lehz... =die=

well, the happy thing is that woon came by tanjong pagar to slack around, and we had lunch together at subway! i think i'd just rediscovered sandwiches; after eating subway or the first time last month, this is the third time i'm eating there. its nice! just.. take away the pickles and chilli. had a lot of time blasting at the stupid saturday-off study system. uuu, is it really too late to do anything about it? seriously, i didn't read the news that time, so basically i found out about it like 2 months after it'd been implemented. den i was in denial. i'm still in my "coming to terms with it" stage.

its ATROCIOUS! how can such a big issue NOT cause a big enough uproar over the net and student population that i'd have heard of it? just what happened exactly? like, when did they decide on it? was there any debates/forums about it? coz basically, everyone i know is against the idea larz. its impossible that such a thing could even have been Passed. *still in denial* yep, it must be a bad dream. a very looong bad dream.

speaking about bad dreams, remember i said i need to lose 4 kg? make that 6 now. *pause* my world is collapsing! the sky is falling down on me! my world is dark! uwaaaa~~~

will try to work harder tmr so i can go off chotto earlier on wed. and orange-devil-san is still unmade, uu. still got 3 returns sitting on my desk.

i am joblesssss... slacked for 2 hours today; my senior really have nothing to let me do liaoz. actually he has lots of stuff piling up on his desk, but he doesn't have time to sort through them to find stuff for me to do. so there he is, OT-ing like mad, and here i am sucking my thumb and waiting to go off. i thot there'll be work... *sobz* i'll never earn back my 4 hours of upaid leave at this rate~

but i think he might have cleared his stack by tonight, so maybe i'll be damn busy again tmr. *looking forward to OT on thurs* and actually the company gave free movie tickets to Jian Gui for today, and i REALLY want to go! but, sighz. have to come back and zap my SMU supporting docs and work on orange-san. *stares at the pile of felt and strings*

oh, and about my senior, did i mention he is this super good-looking australian chinese? and i think he is like 1.9m tall... everytime he stands up to get stuff i'm like... *whoa. eyes follow him up* the IRRITATING thing is, i just can't get used to him! its IRRITATING. coz i always get very nervous around him, and my voice squeaks, or i'll start giggling halfway through when he is talking. yar, i can't describe it, its NOT a crush, its just that there's this tickling sensation on my neck when he smiles. *cringe* its like, (-___-)"' why??! why me?! (why did i choose to say this today? coz i totally wigged out twice lar! argggghz! its pissing!)

but he's a super nice guy. *prays hard i'll get used to his frequency* i don't think i can survive like this for 3 months...

hmm, going to work liaoz.

hey~ i'm alive!

was pretty busy lately; so it was like, too much stuff to blog about, and too busy/tired to write a long blog, soooo~ *procastination at work*

ummm, all in a nutshell: celebrated JR's bday, went down to SMU, ql came my house, walked 11km in MacRitchie, HSBC treetop trail, my legs hurt like the worst shit ever, driving in the rain, bought JR's bday present, jap lesson (jikan wa DIFFICULT), and... AGE OF BABEL is up!

oyasuminasai.

buh~ i forgot i had a blog. lol.

coz its been SO busy lately! at work: basically the network broke down thrice this week (its only thursday, for heaven's sake) so we can't do anything during normal office times = no chargeable hours. den when the system is up again (at 5pm, office hours end at 5.30pm) we try to finish off what is stacked up. So we stay at the office for 10 hours, but have less than 8 hours chargeable for the day. so no OT! uuuu...

stayed to 7.30 yesterday, 7 today... no extra pay. and i'll get even less coming month, coz i'll have to take 4 hours unpaid leave to go SMU interview. (my smu interview is on coming tuesday~)

so i'm super hard pressed for time. and i'll be staying up past twelve so i can KS and get more driving slots in May. (application starts on 1 April; i'm applying at time 00:01) if u start applying at 6am, three quarters of the slots are taken up liao. i only managed to get two slots in april. *sobz* at that rate i'll never pass...

and did u realize that all the impt stuff that u carefully put away coz its impt would always go missing, while the super boh stuff would still remain in plain view on your table top? i can't find my CPF PIN. wonder if i should just let it pass and claim that i didn't receive the letter like 5 years down the road. actually i think i'll do just that. *grinz*

on the other hand, met up with stell and mc today after work to have dinner at pasta mania. wah~ i'm so full... its interesting that the 4 of us live in 4 corners of singapore; NSEW lehz. lol. beh, its really hard to *censor censor censor for time being. check back later* for stell when she's around lehz... keep wanting to *censor censor censor for time being. check back later*. den feel so evil, coz it's *censor censor censor for time being. check back later*. myu.

and... another thing i'm busy regarding... had the driving FTT (final theory test) on tuesday. *dies* i still don't understand why auto drivers have to learn the clutch and stuff theory lehz! (basically coz there's nothing to learn for auto theory; we rawkz de world~)

busy preparing for the SMU interview.. how~ i'm gonna flunk~