happy children's day to all~~~!

there's a new children's book on the market: "The Secrets of the Alchemist Dar". interestingly enough, its not just a simple children's book, but a treasure hunt for a set of rings, worth a total of $1MM!!! the book would contain clues with which would point you to... ... ...well, its pretty vague, i don't know myself. seems you have to buy the book or crack some codes to know. but it sounds darn interesting if you ask me. its on my to buy list now, if not just for pure curiosity. ^ ^

Went around looking for the book, but its not in the bookstores yet. grrr...

run away. escape. get as far off as you can. feeling murderous and angry and pissed off at the world at the same time. bye bye honours~ it was nice knowing you even if only a dream~ bye bye 'friends'~ good riddance yo~~~ bye bye xueqi~ i'll take good care of this body you left in my care~ NOW LET THE CARNAGE BEGIN.

gosh, the haze in boon lay has been really really bad lately. After 3 days of rain, it finally stopped on thurs, and i gleefully went to do my laundry. after 24 hours, the jeans are not dry yet, and i could swear there's a light sheen of dust on some of my clothes.

And mid-autumn festival is supposed to be the night of the big yellow round moon. The moon was big, the moon was round, but it was pink coz of the haze. (which wasn't that bad i guess) 

and the place perpetually smells.

i wish the someone up there would just dump a bucket of water on indonesia. 

ya, i've known if for quite some time.
hey, i'm not a welfare state. and yer not
i'm not a social person.
a lil toddler or stupid intern that we
sometimes i can't help but to wonder, are my standards too high? i always
gotta monitor and lead step-by-itsybit-step o' the way. if yer gona need us to
hope that, and expect that project mates contribute as much commitment
come after yer for ev'ry bitta work and check thru' ev'ry bitta bloody thing yer
as i do, but i guess that's really hard for some people?
ever manage ta do, fuck, we mighta' well be doing indiv work.

or are they just not trying? and i can't let it be known to them how i feel
if yer in bloody deep shit, rem'ber yer shat that shit yerself, and ev'ry thing
coz i'm not a social person who can say "hey, you suck. buck up can you?"
yer do comes with a  price, equal trade. yer want fun, yer want
nicely and still maintain a friendship. really, that's so not my style. maybe
responsibilities and a bloody title and yer frens happy, yer better know yer
i'm expecting too much, maybe i'm too strung up over the project.
need sacrifices. and i hope that sacrifice betta not be me.

But i really hate looking at my grades go down the drain. ah~ i can't care anymore.
and fuck if yer have three tests upcoming and can't do a shat; don't we
all.
shit.

 

everything that happens in this week can be boiled down to one word.

bleh.

i got dumped. boo hoo. for one week as les had no school for this week. its been lively dinners with my best fren xueqi, great exercise walking to school back, long intellectually stimulating nights with kuro-san... lol. nah.

with new-found time on my hands, i embarked on a new web project. ...lets just wait a long while before i start on that.

anyway, other stuffs: 

so we have this 10% investments test, see? its an online quiz, own time, own target, you may bring your seniors/frenz/textvbook with you to the lab. 30min - 15 questions. so we tried to come up with a time we could all meet and score well together.

the only time was tuesday 1030am. so... ok~ i'll have to make do with that. even though i have a maths quiz 1430pm later the same day. so it was 9 chapters of investments, and 5 chapters of maths.

and i had a full day project meeting on sun. so i mugged fri for investments. i mugged sat for investments. i mugged sun for investments. i mugged till i almost died at 3am in the morning. and on mon i pia-ed maths.

and on tuesday morning i woke up to find an sms saying that one of us could not mug finish in time, so we'll try to meet on fri instead (originally ruled out fri as it was the deadline and would be too risky in case of technical failures). sooo... fine.

i screwed up my maths test coz i forgot all my formulae. even though i could mug on tues morning instead of doing my investments test.

just as well~ in the end we did the tests separately, with the first to complete helping the rest. i got helped a lot. but still feels quite cheated; shoulda have started studying maths first. bweh. ah well.

and settler's cafe sponsored our hall 1 blockus set for 3 months. everyone's hooked on it. we found it lying in the games room yesterday after scrabble training, stole it back to our room and... we spend every free hour playing the game. i won twice. but its a real relationship hurter since there's a lot of sabotage involved. haha. i love blokus... where can i buy....? *cries* 

and death note 2 is out but i can't download it with this bloody network. i have HALF of the anime. 14 min of incomplete sugoi anime, that leaves me hanging in the air.

bleh 

 

cheese cake! my mom made cheese cake yesterday! quite heavenly to eat something cool and creamy; it feels like all your worries just go away.

again, there's accounting project yesterday. and there's accounting project today... i need a time out to go shop for a business suit!!! i need one for my class!!! grrr! 

the death note movie was... ... ... basically i think the director was an idiot. to the people who had never read the manga, its a pretty good show; there's suspense, there's this showdown between two people, and the detective is a genius.

but it was just lacking in what death note was all about: the battle of wits between TWO geniuses. plus the 'pull' factor that keeps all death note fans glued to the series: the audiences are clever enough to see two steps in advance; but the two geniuses are always one step ahead, continously surprising us with their insight and ingenuity.

and the director seems intent on showing us just how stupid he thinks commoners are. apparently, his take on the NPA is that the higher up detectives and analysts had never done statistics before, and that the audience would just be woo-ed when he adds in some hocus pocus statistics, graphs and studies that don't really impact the investigation. 

to those who had watched the movie and are currently thinking "duh. that's quite an average detective show" i'm gonna bring some justice to the original MANGA. if you'd not watched the movie, or think 'the movie's just fine!' move along now~ there's nothing for you here.

make your decision. are you reading on? (warning: spoilers ahead)

1) movie: light was this very naive college student who tot that the law was perfect, and went looking for trouble just to see for himself the loophole in the law system, and became very depressed. his gf was just as naive. -___-

> manga: light was a genius who knew that society had many flaws that simple law and order is unable to right. he's an idealist who believes that law-abiding citizens should enjoy a civilized society.

2) movie: light confronted Raye in front of his gf, accusing him of tailing him. hence the gf knew that there was a connection between light and the FBI, Raye.

> manga: of coz light did not confront Raye. as light's tail, he would predictably sit behind them such that the plan would still work perfectly.

3) movie: naomi was an idiot, divulging personal information and background. rawrgh!

>manga: she was really smart, being able to draw conclusions with what little info she had. she was just unfortunate she didn't know Raye was tailing Light, and hence fell victim to him. Light only realized she had given him a false name minutes before she was going to turn in her findings to the station, and had to try to lure her name out.

4) movie: light killed his gf so he would have an excuse to get into the investigation team.

> manga: well~ he got into the team coz of L's initiative. i guess that's a little planning ahead by light... just that it was very evil, very self-damaging, and very uncharacteristic of him.

and yadar yardar.... 

Visual Basic coding. ...i can't do coding~!!! *cries* somehow i have to figure out the language in one day. today. *cries again*

i'd been staring at the screen for one whole day. i've got random 'hey! i figured this part out!' code scattered all over my document. and i'm not even a quarter of the way to finishing yet.

well~ if i still can't figure it out by monday, i'll have to get my group members to bail me out of my part of the project. but i really really don't want to do that, seeing as how they're doing the major parts of the code and i'm just doing the security of the database. (ironically, i'm stuck at the basic coding of validating the password against the database. the how-to should be somewhere in my lab lessons, once i figure them out. and i'm not even near the encryption phase yet, which was wat i'm really supposed to be doing >.<)  

its scary. i can't even begin to imagine what it'll be like next semester. its JAVA CODES. a million times harder than this. the computing people are looking at me piteously now, shaking their head at my lack of talent. and praying for my survival next sem... help~~~~ 

its 3am in the morning, and here i am again, trying to distract myself from sleepiness. normally i just read manga to keep myself perked up and to keep the blood rushing, but i'd reached my download limit for the manga server i'm on, and i'd about read the latest manga 3 times.

seriously, manga works wonders. a good manga just stimulates the brain, and keeps your consciousness from fizzling out. if i ever get hit by a truck, and i'm about to die, and i need to keep awake to prevent the cold from seeping in? give me manga. thanks.

*stares at wat i just typed* i'm beginning to doubt the coherence of my written report now. shucks.

status report: IT project, IT presentation and IT quiz (full semester) due on Thursday. Investments project is due on NEXT WED and i seriously wonder what i'm doing here writing out my investments project report and not coding or getting some shut-eye. i guess its coz my investment project meeting's at 0830 later today, and i'd gotta get some stuff to show there. especially seeing as how i'd just been slacking off on the project for the past month. i'll have to say, my slacking off is coz our timetables clash, and its not my habit to work until minimum 12 hours before the deadline, and i always get informed of meetings LIKE 12 hours before. or something. so of coz i've nothing to show. 

argh. i'm just not used to this project pace. the team leader's a final year student, i guess that makes a lot of difference huh. a 3 year age gap. a very disciplined way of working. and i bet he's got 30 hours in a day.  (hey, i'm not complaining, i seriously respect this guy) anyway~

lets try to work towards sleeping at 5.30am shall we? 

and, i really should go cut my hair, or dye it a lighter shade. i'm scaring myself everytime i go to the washroom at night. and that's quite often.  especially since i watched the exorcism of emily rose (once again, fantastic movie!), and found out about 3am being the devil's hour, it just feels EERIE.

i now kinda understand why people hog the kitchen sink to brush their teeth. except i do it at 3am while they do it like, 9am in the morning when we're all rushing to use the sink to wash cups and cutlery. i even feel like keeping the toilet door wide open when i bath so i could be a little closer to society. except that i'll die of shock if i suddenly see a pair of feet under my cubicle door, even if it were a human's. brrrr.... if i stink lately, don't ask.

i'm back~ again~ at this ungodly hour. 10.50am.

nah, i din oversleep and miss my project meeting. more like, the school just cut me off the LAN at 3.30am and i'm forced to sleep, so i had 1 hour more sleep than i budgeted for. and i woke up at 7.30am to continue with the drafting of the written report.

and my group leader seems to be still asleep now, so we just cancelled the meeting since there's no point organizing a rehearsal if the director's not here. 

so i'm back again~ at this ungodly hour. 10.53am. and i don't know whether i should just go to sleep or be productive.

...*goes to nap for 15min*