some people are just spoilt silly by all the people around them, and by Fate, who just take an odd liking to them. these people really piss me off, getting anything they want just by sitting there and doing nothing. there's just too many nice people in this world helping them, its so unfair.

and i'm just one of those super lucky spoilt brats who i believe should be thrown into a deep pit and fed to hungry and rabid chihuahuas and bunnies.

argh~ i just feel so guilty... i didn't study for the investment quiz, and couldn't help at all when we're doing the quiz online. i volunteered to be the first to try so i could be the warming-up test and guinea pig. and somehow i got all the easy questions and my group mates helped me score 14/15...

and the really good people scored lower coz they got really hard questions... and they were really nice about it... *cries*

i really really feel bad when i screw up, or i leech a lot, or i can't contribute at all, and everyone's so nice to me... or by a twist of fate i end up better off than the people who really deserve to be in my shoes.

i'm being chewed alive by guilt. 

i woke up this morning all hyped up to start studying hard for the exams. full of ambition, i took out my scheduler to plan out my study timetable... and realized wat-the-hell! my exam is actually one week away.

as we normally, and i thought - traditionally have a week of break in between of exams and tutorials and quizzes and projects, i assumed the exams is at least 14 days away, seeing as how its monday today.

omg. to hell with a study plan, i've to just study anything and everything as quickly as i can.

and my project and investment quiz are still in dire need of attention. *cries*

as the title says. let's try to get through this alive~!

beh. i really wanna just take an MC and get out of my maths module; take it next sem... i am really confident of getting an A next sem, but with a current C grade on my 20% quiz i think the most i can get is a B+.... its such a waste. totally bad news: deprive me of an A, and set my GPA behind -___-

i don't know how i can pull it off though. argh.

its a wonder how a 1.5m giant can just keep on meeting that same 1.5mm spider all over the place.

there's this anderson's spider that's taken up residence in my hostel room. i see it now and then, hopping across the floor, getting behind the tables...

and now its determinedly trying to build a web across my bedsheets and bolster. i'm really scared i'll kick around in my sleep and crush the innocent little bugger.

its just so- cute~~~ and doggedly determined! and clueless! running headlong into constuction and never giving up even though there's this big giant trying to scare you away. love its spirit.

wish i can give my bed to you, spidey, but its really for your own good.

i'm glad you didn't build your nest over yy's side. ^ ^ 

exam's over~~~~!!!! i did rather badly for the papers (don't ask); bad time management again, irrelevant tips, but~ exam's over~~~~!!!! yay~!!!

and i've soooo much things planned for the holidays --- i can't fit them into the one month time period -___-. so basically i'm getting disillusioned by how short the holidays is, and how much stuff i have to do. and its just the first day of the hols too. ...wehhhhh...

i'm sounding like a bubblehead up there, but oh well~

i'm planning to finish shadow hearts. and hopefully FF8 from... god.. when was that? sec3? and pick up basic piano. and try to set up another webcomic (tho u all know wats gonna happen in the end).

and i've a part-time job to set up some system for the school website, hopefully i can finish it by the start of sem2.

and read up on investing, so i can participate and win some money from the annual investment challenge in december.

and train up for scrabble and BOGGLE <special emphasis on this. i wanna get into the quarters since the semis is quite impossible seeing who we're up against... but yy's leaving us for korea and we don't have people... *sob* and the stupid captain is not enthusiastic at all.... *SOB*

and go on dates and go out with friends (JB's back from australia~~). i hate the exam period.