its now 2 months of 13 hour work days (although it felt like i aged 5 years). and i want nothing - nothing else but to chill at home and hug something. or go out to the seaside and stare at the sky. or make out with a cute guy. anything that'll get me away from having to think complicated thoughts.

meh i feel like a lump of meat... a cold cold lump of meat nearing the expiration date. my body shudders like a machine that's gonna fall apart any second, and my RAM is full and i'm skipping thought processes, my heart goes into overdrive with the simple act of sitting up in bed. picture this 1st generation laptop that's been left on for 2 weeks, and you get the picture. (>_<)

i am so so so gonna die before 50.

and i'm always cold, so much so that i stopped ordering the sashimi and cha soba bentou set for dinner (its fantastic, and did i ever mention that we eat sushi at least once every week), coz i'll just shiver through my dinner.

i'm so cold that i almost pounced on one of the bulkier guys in the office, who was happily sitting beside me and radiating heat like a summer heater.

i need a bolster. with in-wired heating. and maybe with arm-like extensions that i can wrap around my neck.

and then i remembered i think they might have something like that on the market - its called a sex doll (issit? i think i'd only seen those blown-up plasticky ones though). bleah.

current brain process :

needabreakwantsomethingwarmandfuzzytohughmmisthiswithdrawalsymptomsfromhavingaboyfriendneedabreakwantsoomewarmfoodneedtogetbirthdaypresentfromdadneedsomealonetimehavetolookthroughinsurancequotationshaventhadagoodwashfordayswantasunnydayoutitsmidautumnhalfthedayisgoneneedtorelaxandrestcustardpuddingpleasesighneedtogodoamillionthingsandthenitllbemondayagain

just watched inglourious basterds.

i'm not a nazi, racist, facist or whatever evil-ist person, but damn Hans Lander the Jew Hunter was cool. deadly, efficient, sharp, intelligent, capable double-stabbing son of a bitch. i loved him.

the movie was fast, witty and funny, with a huge dose of gore and immorality, which made it a freaking fun romp.

what got me ticked off was the final attack on Hitler, which was really anti-climatic and stupid. or maybe it wasn't, but it was just my personal dislike for a lack of planning for important missions. a hundred deaths to the allied forces for the lack of planning. one death to the nazis for the lack of security. BLEAH YOU GUYS SUCK AT YOUR JOBS.

i can't do it better than you, but i'm sure someone with your resources could.

Once again~ Hans Lander was just too cool in the movie.

my company is giving out two half days for free! 

its super old news, coz this was decided way earlier on in Aug, and we must take these 2 half days by Oct or its gone.

and i finally managed to squeeze in my two half days! just before the end of Oct - guess when - 29th and 30th Oct.

yay.

Two half days (where i'll finish up all my work faster than usual before i leave) and then i'll get back just in time for the next round of month end work. (>_<)

its amazing. my vacation is two weeks away but the anticipation and hopefulness is keeping me alive. fu fu fu.

then the next bout of leave is in December. *looks forward*